wishing I was anywhere...but here

It's nights like these that I wish I were closer....to whom or what I'm not always sure, but closer. Scott's left for the night again and I'm lonely. I hate nights when I don't have much going on and then it comes that dreadful time when he must leave for work. That's about the time I start daydreaming. Daydreaming of places afar....where my friends are, where my friends aren't, where new friends could be. Sometimes I think it's the weather that sends me into these frinzies of wishing I was someone else. When it starts getting colder and dark earlier I think I become depressed. This sickness that takes over me and pulls me down. It's really kind of crazy that this is happening so early in life. Isn't that one of those things that isn't supposed to happen to you until your older? I really need to get out more.