A new beginning

Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed... The blog has taken on a whole new meaning for me. Who would have thought back in 2007 when I started writing to give encouragement for my Mary Kay team that I would find myself here. Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed has now taken on a whole new meaning. I'm going to be a mother. There. I've said it. I've said it out loud several times but until this very moment, I don't think it's set in. I haven't posted it on Facebook, I haven't called long lost friends, I haven't stood on my roof and shouted as loud as I possibly can. But, I'm going to be bringing life into the world. The funny part is I always thought that when this day finally arrived I would tell everyone I ran into on the street. I thought I would have T-shirts made up to announce to everyone "Hey! Look at me! I get to have a child!" But, oddly enough, none of that happened. Why? I find myself asking that question a lot. Trust me, it's not because I'm not excited. In fact, it's the exact opposite. I'm so overjoyed that I sometimes find myself having to take a reality check just to make sure it's real. After taking "the test" I called the Dr. and let them know. "Congratulations! This is wonderful for you and your husband!" said the receptionist on the line. "Yes, Thank you." "You don't sound too excited." What does that mean anyways? Too excited? "No, I'm incredibly excited. But, you don't understand. Scott and I have been married for eight years and we have been through four years of endless meds, Dr.'s and needles." The line was quiet. "It's okay, after those four years of endless fertility treatments and two more years of hoping and praying we decided that we would someday adopt." I mean, isn't that what people do who are told by three Dr.'s that they will likely never have children on their own do? Those who desperately seek to have a family? "I just need you to convince me that this is real and it's all going to be okay? okay?" "Sure, honey. We'll get you in as soon as possible." And, then the day came. I went to the office, checked myself in, took a deep breath, and said a prayer. Scott and I walked into the ultrasound room and I suddenly got a lump in my throat. Not because I didn't trust Him, it was because I didn't trust myself. What if? Then, there it was. The little blob I had been praying for. And, the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed. Thank you God for this beautiful new beginning.